21 candles blown

Goodbye college.

Hello work.

I'm currently waiting for my phone interview from CIMB Bank.

Yes.. I'm nervous.

Couldn't sleep the whole freaking night so I've decided to blog.

Hope everything goes according to plan.

Reality is here to haunt me.

Wish me luck.

I'm finally 21.

An adult if you want to make it sound adult-ish.

Can I stay 21 forever?

Many things changed in these past 6 months or so.

I guess I've grew up quite a lot since all the drama happened.

Learnt to set my priorities right.

You told me that I would make it through without you.

I guess you didn't know that you couldn't at that time.

We both couldn't.

Thanks for always being here <3

We have finally added a new member to our family.

Her name is Gummy.

The bad part is that she is not toilet trained or might never be toilet trained.

Stubborn innocent little puppy.

Yeah... Puppy.

I mentioned that I wanted a monkey but then it seems that the Malaysian Gov don't allow people to buy license to rare exotic animals nowadays.

Sad but yet someday someday... Monkey!

Back to doing my research on banking.

Good morning.

You made me smile even when I thought I couldn't

The time has come to say goodbye

Current relationship status - In a relationship but then its too fast to let the world know about us.

Have to deal with my current break up issues first.

Finally there is a reason to break up.

Well, I might sound evil but then I have to let go.

I'm glad I did my part by giving you the best birthday before letting you go.

So anyway, today I went to a pet shop and fell in love with monkeys.

I want to get one.

Actually me and Sam is planning to get one.

Searching for a monkey.

Oreo then will have another friend.

I've finally decided which laptop to buy.

Mummy mummy... I want....

Don't scream after I tell you the price =)

Life is great so far.

Hope it will be better.

Fingers crossed that I will not fail my exam.

Results gonna be out on the 5th of May.

Appreciate what I have

What if that nail of yours broke like how my heart broke?

Life is weird sometimes.

We ask for 1 thing at a time but ended up getting more than what we've asked for.

Sometimes its good and sometimes it ends up really bad.

Causes many issues to appear.

Just like now.

Are you gonna hold my pinky finger and walk through this together?

Through the happy and sad times.

I'm willing to share them together with you.

Hurry up and finish your final project.

We are going on a trip to lala land after that.

We both know what we want.

Now that you realized that we both are important to each other, lets not screw this up again.

I don't think our hearts can handle another crack.

Bruno Mars - Marry You

I'm only selfish because you are.

I am sick of running around the bushes trying to understand you.

Why is it only me who has to understand?

Why can't you try to understand me too?

I'm in a very difficult situation and I'm just asking you to give me time.

Is that too much to ask?

Remember what we said to each other?

What did it mean when all you want to do now is walk away?

Do I mean anything to you?

You mean the world to me.

I'm sorry.

It's okay to be jealous.

It's not a crime and at least I'm not lying to you and say that I'm okay.

I left because I couldn't stand looking at you turning into a monster.

I guess I've changed.

I've changed into someone you always wanted me to be and now you say that I'm wrong.

I just want to be me and I just want you to accept me the way I am.

Just like how I've accepted the way you are.

I love you.

This paper heart is bleeding

They say only God can judge us

I've been living in Kampar for 3 weeks already.

So far its not bad.

I escaped the boring Ipoh life.

Not like there is much to do in Kampar but then its still a new environment to me.

You once said that time will eventually heal.

I can agree with you on that but then the scars are left behind.

Anyway, life is great.

With you back in my life and everything is just back to being quite normal.

I've missed you.

Had a great time at Lumut today.

It was just so relaxing and you by my side.

Just like the good old days but things changed.

The important part is that we didn't change but learned a lesson of a lifetime.

I will still be here when the rain stops.